I am at home..... on our big computer. YAY! It is fixed. Still very very slow... we only have dial up. But it will work. It was a power supply thingie. It was less than $100 so I am thankful.
It has been a lazy dazy Saturday. I feel sorta blah.
Truth is .... I have gained back 20 of the 40lbs I lost. I am so discouraged. I started back in Sept. 2008.... and I lost 40lbs over a period of 5 months. I kept it off.... until the holidays back at Thanksgiving/Christmas. I really worked so hard to lose the 40.... and I really really thought it was a life change. I honestly thought that I would never go back to being "obese." I hate that word. Ugh. I know that I didn't lose the weight in my own strength.... it was God. I thanked Him, praised Him.... He was the reason. I felt so much better with the weight off.... more energy, just a sense of contentment. My feet didn't hurt..... anyway.... I just can not seem to get back in that frame of mind. It really bothers me that I am back to my old ways. I love sweets. Chocolate, cookies, ice cream.... ALL of it.
I do not want this to consume me.... but I find myself thinking of this most of the day. I am still walking 1.5 miles 4-6 times a wk. I think just as much as seeing the weight back is how "shocked" I am that it wasn't a life change for me.
So I said it. I know it is very materialistic.... so many other things are so much more important. Thank you for reading.... for stopping by.
Hugs~
You are not alone in this Teena. I have gained and lost the same twenty pounds more times than I can remember. Every single time I vow it will be different, and every single time I blow it.
ReplyDeleteThe great thing is grace. We always, always have the chance to start again. I have ten pounds I need to lose. Before it gets to twenty, I need to do something about it. Let's pray for each other to really make the life changes we know He wants us to make.
I so understand what you are saying and Linda too. I know what I do wrong....like eating that icecream cone tonight and eating out twice this weekend...and it is only Sat. night. I could use your prayers too...and I will pray for both of you (o: I really need to walk more...my ankle has been hurting me. I need to get it strong and get out and walk.
ReplyDeleteYeah, now you can get back on line. Praise the Lord for fresh starts and new beginnings in Him~
ReplyDelete~Cinnamon
p.s I always tell my boys (we have 5) that I look good for having gained AND lost 230lbs over the last 20 yrs. Hee hee. With each baby boy I gained 50lbs :-0 except with the last one I only gained 30lbs :-/
Hang in there~ tomorrow is a new day!
Hi Teena, I am going through the same thing and so mad at myself and can't seem to do anything about it. I lost 10 lbs early this year and thought I was on the way to losing all I needed to lose which is a lot--then got sidetracked by some candy laying around, got off my healthy eating plan and have gained almost all of it back.
ReplyDeleteI pray that we get this figured out and are successful--I know it is not good for my health--and yes, our feet will feel better.
Blessings,
Dianne
Teena,
ReplyDeleteSo glad your back online at home!! Dial up is such a bummer!! But better than nothing right?! :-)
Back after Eli was born I went up to 172 pounds--not good for being 5' tall!! But in the past few years I've slowly whittled down almost 30 of those pounds. In many ways I am thankful for our financial woes cause we ate fast food so much and Steve and I were always going out to a restraunt and to see a movie (gotta have popcorn!!). Without access to that stuff I am slowly losing. But it's hard! I mean Josh is doing the P90x workout and jogging. He "encourages" (read "hassles") me about working out and eating better--but seems like when I try so hard to do those things I gain weight because I'm always thinking about the stuff I can't have or do and blow it every time. Sigh!! I know how bad it feels to have to carry all that extra weight and I pray that the Lord will help you fight that battle and be victorious!!
Love,
Kris
You are definitely not alone. Some years back I lost 65lbs and gained it all back. I wish I'd stopped and did something about it before I gained it ALL back. Now I'm trying again to take off some weight. I just want to be healthy and not huff and puff after putting all the laundry away (3 flights of stairs a few times) It has to be life changes we can stick to.
ReplyDeleteGood morning Teena,
ReplyDeleteI think that you & I are going to go visit Cinnamon & spend some time. :)xo
I think we would feel better!
Love your self as God made
you friend... the rest will come! :)
You are a blessing & thanks for sharing.
Blessings & prayers,
Lori