I am at home..... on our big computer. YAY! It is fixed. Still very very slow... we only have dial up. But it will work. It was a power supply thingie. It was less than $100 so I am thankful.
It has been a lazy dazy Saturday. I feel sorta blah.
Truth is .... I have gained back 20 of the 40lbs I lost. I am so discouraged. I started back in Sept. 2008.... and I lost 40lbs over a period of 5 months. I kept it off.... until the holidays back at Thanksgiving/Christmas. I really worked so hard to lose the 40.... and I really really thought it was a life change. I honestly thought that I would never go back to being "obese." I hate that word. Ugh. I know that I didn't lose the weight in my own strength.... it was God. I thanked Him, praised Him.... He was the reason. I felt so much better with the weight off.... more energy, just a sense of contentment. My feet didn't hurt..... anyway.... I just can not seem to get back in that frame of mind. It really bothers me that I am back to my old ways. I love sweets. Chocolate, cookies, ice cream.... ALL of it.
I do not want this to consume me.... but I find myself thinking of this most of the day. I am still walking 1.5 miles 4-6 times a wk. I think just as much as seeing the weight back is how "shocked" I am that it wasn't a life change for me.
So I said it. I know it is very materialistic.... so many other things are so much more important. Thank you for reading.... for stopping by.