Sunday, February 05, 2017

How can it be 15 Years?

Things were pretty scary 15 yrs ago tonight. I was almost 33 weeks pregnant with my 5th child.  I had pre~eclampsia and my blood pressure was so high .... our doctor made the decision to deliver him. Yes, by c~section. All my babies have been by c~section (story for another day). I had been on bedrest for almost a month, taken the steroid shots to mature the baby's lungs and had bi~weekly non stress tests.

But, on the morning of the 4th....  my head was hurting so bad, my eyes were "dancing."  So, I called labor & delivery and they told me to come immediately.

Upon arrival my blood pressure was 198/118. My doctor admitted me and started magnesium sulfate. Dr. Reese also gave me another round of the shots to mature the baby's lungs.

Things. were. pretty. scary.

God was there. He poured His mercy out...

Wyatt Emory was born the morning of  February 6th.  He weighed 5 lbs 1 oz and was 18" long. Such a tiny thing!  So very thankful to God for His grace and mercy. So very thankful for our 5th born son who was named after my dad (Emory).

This was the first 24 hours of Wyatt's life. Wyatt came home with me/us only after 4 days in the hospital! God is good!

Wyatt, you are such a bright spot in my life. You are so full of love.... Jesus' love. You always make sure I am alright. At almost 15, you still tell us you love us. The way you are full of JOY and always singing and smiling ... makes me think of your sister. I know you miss her very much. You help me so much with all the changes... reassuring me everything will be ok. I know God has big plans for you but He is already so big in your life. I am going to fully embrace these 3 1/2 years with you. Time is running out....  at this moment right now I have 184 weeks left till you start college... 1287 days.... 30,885 hours....  I love you so very much, Wyatt! Happy Birthday!!

Monday, January 30, 2017

Different. I am not Alone.

Will you submit to the circumstances he brings to your whole family because you believe I am in control? Will you humble yourself and accept My will and stop fighting against him? Even if no one else ever sees the battles you have lived through or knows your quiet faithfulness to love Him, your service of worship to Me is not lost. I see you! You may feel alone because so few understand, but you are not alone. 

This is a quote from Sally Clarkston new book "Different." 

I haven't ordered it yet. I have an addiction to books. My "to read list" is long. My youngest boys are 13 and almost 15 so I wonder if I will really need it.

But, the quotes I keep seeing and the reviews .... make me want this book! 

The quote above speaks to my heart. 


Tuesday, January 10, 2017

2017 has started with a BANG.

The flu has hit our home. Each one of the boys and now me.  Tomorrow will be a week of fever for me. It is tough. We didn't catch it in time so no... tamiflu. :(  We have spent a lot of days laying on the couch, taking advil, drinking hot tea and eating soup. I've never had the flu before and hopefully will not ever get it  again!

We have LAUGHED some....  we have been watching netflix and falling asleep. As crazy as it has been I told them....  we will talk about this for years.   OH and our TREE is still up! Our decorations are down but not the tree....  matter of fact as I am typing this it is my view when I look up and the lights are on.

We have shared how we miss everyone and how fun it was....  and all the fun stuff we did and read together.

January is always hard for me.  Our home is not well insulated and January is usually our coldest month.  It may not be cold to some of you... who live in the North but when it gets down in the teens here we are FREEZING.  This past weekend it was around 25 with the wind chill around 17. BRRR.

Wes made Wyatt and him a winter wonderland. :)

Hope your New Year is off to a great start. Would love to hear that you stopped by. Do you have a word for 2017? Is there snow in your area?


Grace~ Teena

Thursday, January 05, 2017

Getting Ready for 2017.

Each year I choose a word that I believe God is impressing on my heart. I know some may think this is cheesy or silly but it works for me. In previous years my words have been grace, mercy, peace, joy and this past year REST.

The last few weeks the word that keeps coming to my mind is LAUGH.  I know that may sound strange.... its not spiritual .. it doesn't have some great meaning.....  it is just ... simple....


So I am going to share with you.... why I feel this word is meant to be my word for 2017. I am an older mom. I am 55. My two youngest boys are 13 and almost 15. My oldest is 31. I have homeschooled for 26 years. I love my life....   even though I have shared with all of you a sustaining longing that I have struggled with for years and years.  My husband was diagnosed in 1989 with Agoraphobia with severe panic attacks. 

I am a detail person. I like details and I like to know details so it is very hard for me not to  share all the little but big things. 

Lysa went to college in August. She has met some amazing friends.... lifelong best friends. I see pics of her and her friends, I see snaps and they are always LAUGHING. I see friends here.... and they are always LAUGHING.....   

here at home....   we are often tense ....   not much LAUGHING.  I have realized this and it makes my heart sad. 

My children move away and are in their adult lives and are out from under the stress of mental illness. IT grieves me that our home can't be a more LAUGHING place. 

So I am hoping in 2017 I can LAUGH more with them. We bought the game Speak Out. It is so funny and we roll LAUGHING.  God has been showing me how much we do not LAUGH here at home. 

Can you pray for me. My heart is sad. God gives me the grace each day but the older I get the more tired and weary I become. I want to "Not grow weary in well doing.... for in due time....  "   

Thank you for listening.  I am always nervous about being so real..... 


Grace~ Teena